The Final

Well everyone it is over. Ten weeks have come and gone. I have met some amazing people this term and have enjoyed being in their class. The support and caring that has been expressed was wonderful and also appreciated. I will miss you all.
I hope everyone succeeds in what ever it is that they are studying to do. I know how difficult it is to have a family, a full time job and school work. I commend you all for pulling it together and doing it. You have lasted the ten weeks, and I think, have done well, so hats off to you. It was a pleasure to get to know you all and I will look for you in future classes when I return.
Again good luck in all your future endeavors and until we may meet again. Stay healthy and happy and get those good grades that I know you can.

Cindy

The end is near

Well we are closing in on the final weeks of this class. My how time goes by so fast. Sometimes I find myself wishing it would slow down just a little so I can actually fell like I am there instead of looking in the rear window and it all passing by. This 10 weeks have been the most challenging for me since I started classes a year ago. And that includes the statistics class I took and didn't think I would pass. I guess stress and broken hearts play a little more on me than statistics. I can't believe all the bad news this term. Not from my class mates but the many family and friends that are a constant in my life. I never expected to grieve for not only a dear friend by also my beloved dog. I am actually taking the dog harder than I could have imagined. Maybe because she was so young and we were so close. I still feel myself tearing up when the normal things we would do are not done and mostly these are everyday things that I would do any how.
I have also decided to take a break from classes. I think I am taking the next term off. I just find that I can not concentrate and have to have some time for me which is long needed. I think that 10 weeks off will rejuvenate me and then I will be able to get down to business and studying again.
I want to thank all my classmates for the support over the last weeks that we have been in class. It was well taken criticism and very much appreciated.
Good luck in all your future endeavors be it in the classroom or life.
Cindy

Farewell

Monday July 5, 2010 I just lost my good friend. My dog of 4 years. She was way too young and such a good dog. I never realized how hard this would hit me. I just want to pick her up, as best I could, and tell her everything will be alright but I never had the chance. She was doing so good and even the vet thought recovery was imminent. But that was not the way is was going to go. You never realize how attached you become to an animal until they are no longer around. I will miss her terribly. I am sorry about this weeks work it just is not happening that well. I promise next week will be better. Till then.....

Now the new week begins

Well we said good bye to a wonderful man on Friday. The words that were expressed were so nice to hear and all so true. I know death is a part of life but as you sit at the service and look around you know deep down in side that one day you will be saying good bye to all the loved ones around you in one way or another and that from that day on life as we knew it is different. Different because a major part of our lives has moved on and the void can never be filled. We know that they are always with us yet the lack of the physical presence is what we mourn for.
Now the last 24 hours my dog of 4 years is so sick. I am so worried we have been at the vet 3 different times and as I write this am getting ready to go back again. I really don't think I will be bringing her home this time though. She is getting worse not any better so I think the best thing is to put her with the vet and hope that in a few days she will be home and just like herself again. So now we start another week and I just can't seem to catch up. Everything for school will most likely be late this week but I am only one person and can only do so much. See you next week I hope with good news. Cindy

Wow

Well another week is gone and now so is the final draft. It has been turned in and the rewriting now starts. I really do not know where all the time has gone only 3 weeks left to this class. I have enjoyed doing this blog also. It is nice to be able to write what you want and if you want to stop you can if you want to keep going you can. The grammar does not have to be perfect and there are no critics just me, my fingers and the key board. If anything on line classes have definetly brought back my typing skills and probably improved them some.
Another week and more bad news my dearest friend is loosing her father. I know the life he had was good (I was part of the second half)but the loss reminds me of when I lost my mom. There is nothing that can replace that hole that will be in your heart. I have to say my good-byes I so hope I do it right. I do know, I will tell him to look my mom and dad up and have him give them a big kiss for me as I wish I could do every day.
I hope everyone out there has a wonderful love filled week. I will see you again next week. Hopefully with good news, something I hardly ever hear anymore. For now though.........Cindy

One down

Just finished the first draft. Wow there is so much more I want to include but I could be writing for a while. I will probabley include more in the final paper. Just finished the post outline first time for me. Wonder if I did it right. Two papers due in the same week this stinks. Now on to the discussion board for the other class so I can post something on the discussion board. Wonderful way to spend your Saturday, get caught up and then fall behind again. Since I am writing about something that affects me I have found that my level of concentration is awful. I keep getting up and walking away only to come back sit down and start writing again and find that my entire train of thought is gone so up I get again. The doctors say your tests have come back negative for Lyme's so that means you are cured yet the same symptoms are still there the loss of concentration, the fatigue and the memory loss are all still there. The aches and pains are strong some days and others they are bearable but no medication for me the test came back negative and obivousily my doctor is one that believes if the test comes back negative then you are cured. Oh well let me go concentrate again so I can try to finish all this so it does not forgotten that it even has to be done. See you next week..

Where has all the time gone?

We just finished unit 5's seminar and now we are into the final stages of the paper that we all thought was going to be so easy. Well we just had a curve ball thrown at us. Write an outline after the rough draft. Talking about confusing. I find that I am good at something like this yet I am begining to wonder how good this final paper will really be. I keep wanting to put my own experiences into this and I have to walk away from the whole thing everytime. I know a research paper is just that but damn why do they have to be so right in the research as far as symptoms and the fact that doctors think you are a hypochondriac. This is the hardest paper yet and I now know it is not getting easier. Oh well another day.......

Plagarisim?

What is plagiarism? The definition is to write someone else's words. Don't we do that everyday? In one way or another aren't we using someone else's words? While we word something to suit us isn't that still using their words? Everyday when we say good morning or hello aren't we in all reality plagiarising the person that originally used that phrase? I know I am asking questions that really have no answers yet, I feel better now that I have.
The past two weeks have made me think a lot about the weirdest things and this is one of them. I guess I am trying to figure out that if I was to die tomorrow what would my obituary say and what would they say in the eulogy. These are questions that I have no answer to, and yet in a way I really wish I could find the answers. Death is not scary to me I do know it is inevitable and a part of everyday life. How ironic is that? I know that I would and will miss many but will they feel the same? That I will never know.

Life and the unexpected

A little while ago one of my dear friends wife sent a note via facebook to tell me that he was diagnosed with an in operable tumor on the right frontal lobe of his brain. With the option of surgery gone they are going to try radiation and chemo to battle this but it does not look good. They figure it will just give us all a little more time to see him and spend some more quality time with him. This is one of the greatest people that I know. The love that he has for his wife and two sons is love that no one can describe. Yet I sit here writing about his life as we know it ending. His wife has said that there is already memory loss and that he is confused and irratable, he knows there is something wrong but is not quite grasping the situation. If he knew that while I am writing this the tears keep flowing he would scold me so bad. I know for a fact that he would tell me to get over it he has and that he is moving ahead and to not get caught in his draft but to follow and enjoy the time that he still has. Some how I know this is what has to be done yet at the moment it is hard to accept. The prayers are for the family to find the strength to continue and to prepare for the inevitable wether it be a week or year. I hope that god gives me the strength to help in any way I can and to savor each and every moment of the friendship that will soon come to an end. And that is the hardest thing of all. Acceptance...

Sunday

Hi everyone , it is raining and I have the cold from hell. What a way to spend my days off. Well at least I caught up on my school work, well almost. Hope where ever you are it is a beautiful day.
Cindy

Hi hope everyone is having a great week. It is Friday and I am finally posting something. Hope you have a wonderful week.

Hi everyone

Well we have reached day two of having this blog and I figured out how to add a photo and to post something new. I hope you are having a wonderful day it is a beautiful day here, so I hope it is just as nice where ever you are.
Cindy

1st Blog

Hi everyone. Hope you can read this. I will be updating this and adding things to it hopefully a picture will help so you all can see whom you are talking with through out the next 10 weeks. Have a great day and please let me know what you think.
Cindy